feeling just okay today. could be better, could be worse. thought about reconnecting with a friend that i miss, but then i thought about all the things about our relationship that made me feel shitty. i was def the better friend, so i need to remember that. everything is just a waiting game right now. like it has been the last few months. now, instead of waiting for employment/money things, i wait for personal enlightenment. you can’t get better over night. and you can’t lose it all in a week. i’ll get there. somehow.
tonight i go to sleep with an empty & heavy heart. goodnight.